Do you find it hard to believe that God will answer your prayers? I’ll tell you, my husband and I have been tested recently. I’ve struggled with my faith that God is going to provide.
A few weeks ago on a weekend family trip, I realized the stress was overwhelming me. Garrett and I have been praying and praying that God would fix our internet issues. We don’t want to have to move because the housing market is up and would cost us at least $30k more than what we spent on our house.
If you didn’t know, my husband Garrett is streaming full-time on Twitch. It’s a LIVE stream of him playing games while interacting with the stream. He has around 8,000 followers, has had 38 salvations on his stream, and is making consistent income.
Up to this point, we’ve had other income to support us with him working remotely for a nonprofit. I also have a full-time job as well. But this month is the first month that Garrett is no longer getting that other income. Now we will have to fully rely on what he brings in from Twitch. The unknown has been stressful for a planner like me.
So here I am having all kinds of stomach issues, praying constantly, and feeling like things are only getting worse. The whole time, I am the one trying to encourage Garrett that everything will be okay and God will take care of us. Ironically, I’m the one falling apart. Can anyone relate?
Garrett’s Grandma said something to me that woke me up out of my doubting coma that weekend. We were complaining about our internet and how we might have to move and yadda yadda yadda… She said with a smile on her face, “It’ll happen when it’s supposed to happen”.
You know, something said like this can irritate people but it flipped a switch in my soul. I said to myself, ‘Duh Heather, God has a reason for why this is happening and He’s not going to hang you out to dry’. Then I heard the new NF song called My Stress that was released that week. It’s so good.
I had some great porch time by myself listening to this song by NF and writing out my angry and confused feelings. Everyone on the trip might have thought something was wrong but actually everything was finally becoming alright. The week we got back, God really showed off and we had enough support one night to cover an entire month.
Is This Really Happening?
Here we are now, and this is the first month of us relying on his Twitch support. So I’ve really got to put my money where my mouth is. I came across a verse that I found encouraging today and hopefully, it speaks to you too.
Jesus was telling a parable about a judge who didn’t care about helping other people. There was a widow that came to the judge needing his help so she didn’t lose everything she owned. Surprise, surprise, the judge didn’t want to waste his time on her.
The widow was persistent and kept asking the judge for his help. So the judge finally gave in so he wouldn’t be bothered anymore. Jesus explained how much more will He help us than the uncaring judge in this parable.
God hears our prayers and will help us when we call out to Him. Answers won’t always come when we think they should, but it will happen when it’s supposed to.
Prayer is powerful and we shouldn’t lose heart when aren’t getting answers. Easier said than done, right? Oh I know, I’m right there with you. So let’s cut to the chase and ask ourselves this question: how much faith do I really have?
I don’t know what you’re facing right now but God does. You might be facing relational conflict, financial stress, or a number of things. Know that God is working ALL things out for your good if you are following after Him (Romans 8:28).
A Prayer For You
Lord Jesus, please forgive me for doubting that You hear my prayers. I know that you care about me and are working things out for my good. Give me the strength to overcome my negativity and doubts. Please give me peace to overcome the stress that tries to creep up and destroy my well being. Guide me in Your will and way so that I do what I know to do, but let You take care of the rest. In Jesus’ name I pray, amen.
Stay hopeful!
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Great post. The Bible said that the just will live by faith so keep trusting and holding on to the Lord.
Yes amen! Thank for the encouragement!